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Hakkai shakes his head after a moment, briskly, and doesn't look at the ghost still glowing beside him. It's not really Eiffel, just the memory of what he'd meant.

"You're uncomfortable. You don't have to--"

A small movement of the hand that isn't cradling the precious cupful of light: Hakkai's not sure what he means by the gesture, but if he'd known how to put it into words, he wouldn't have needed to use a gesture. So perhaps Gojyo will understand, anyway.

As much as he does feel the ways in which they're out of step at times, he does still believe they can understand each other.

"You should get some of the light before the sun's up," he adds, taking refuge in practicality.

"...Yeah, well. That's my issue to deal with, ain't it?"

Gojyo is slowly coming to terms with the fact that every single person on this weirdo ship is totally fine with guys being into guys, and that thinking that is even the slight bit weird is... what's weird. Whatever. He grunts in agreement in Hakkai's suggestion, though, and reaches to scoop a cupful of water.

The light shows Gojyo. Gojyo, alone, in the back of the picture. And then there's Hakkai, alongside his husband, and his lover, and his inmate, and his friends... you get the picture.

Hakkai isn't intending to look, exactly. But the movement, as the image appears, catches his eye. The content arrests his gaze.

Well, that does make sense of just why Gojyo had reacted the way he had to Hakkai trying to invite him to stay. If he feels-- alone, an afterthought--

After a frozen moment, Hakkai says softly, "You are still my best friend."

Wow, suddenly it takes so much concentrated effort to light this cigarette; all Gojyo's attention must be directed towards it. Without looking at Hakkai:

"...I know that."

Intellectually, he does. It's just that his stupid feelings and abandonment issues keep getting in the way.

Hakkai isn't good at reassurance. Not when the problem isn't knowing something, but feeling it. He can be logical; he can be direct; he can lie as fast as he can talk, if he has to. But he doesn't know how to comfort.

Knowing this about himself, after a moment of awkward silence, he shifts to press his knee firmly against Gojyo's.

"I actually miss cleaning cigarette ash off the furniture sometimes." A pause, and then, firmly: "This is not an invitation to smoke inside."

Gojyo, also knowing this about Hakkai, understands and appreciates the gesture for what it is. And so, as much as it is a deliberate effort rather than being genuinely assured, he smiles, lightly pressing his knee against Hakkai's in return.

"Yeah? Too late; now I'm definitely gonna leave ash all over your cabin."

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"We do have ashtrays," Hakkai says, in his best tone of familiar complaint. "But... you should visit for dinner."

If it's not too uncomfortable for you, he doesn't say. Jedao can live with occasional visits, and Hakkai really does want to spend more time with Gojyo. But he'll restrain himself to sitting together at lunch or spending time in the gym, if Gojyo doesn't really want to be in their home.

"Fine, fine. If you make yakisoba or pizza I'll come." Gojyo has super-refined tastes as always.

Hakkai's stupid husband doesn't scare him! They'll just glare at each other through the entire dinner.

"I can do that," Hakkai says, with a quick flash of a smile. They probably will glare at each other the whole time; Hakkai might have to warn Jedao in advance that being on his best behavior would probably annoy Gojyo more, so there's no point in putting in the effort there.

Well, things will work out someday. He hopes.

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